Calling Ourselves Out

Now, before we even get started today, talking about our own human tendencies can be tough and often triggers defensiveness. As you read today’s message, remind yourself that you are human. To my clients-I know you are rolling your eyes because I say this frequently, but it is always worth repeating. Welcome to being human.

When we experience anxiety, a common response is to further protect ourselves. Unfortunately, we often do that by yelling, rudeness, and spewing hurtful comments. Other times we can totally ice out the other persons involved, giving doses of the silent treatment. Because our own nervous system senses it’s under attack, we go to battle. This not only reinforces and strengthens are anxiety, but it’s not so great for our relationships either. 

One part of being human that seems to show up for most (if not all) of us-is that we can so quickly forget our loved ones are on our side when anxiety is activated. This intensifies even more so when we’ve experienced relationships that mishandled our emotional safety. When anxiety is present, we often feel we are on our own-even if we are in currently in safe relationships. 

Today’s message was titled, “Calling Ourselves Out,” and here is my pitch for accountability. Our emotion regulation and our meaningful relationships benefit immensely when we can feel tough stuff without turning against one another. I know, I know, -easier said than done Dr. C. That’s true, it isn’t easy-but it is worth it. In the midst of safe relationships-the more we can learn our triggers, challenge ourselves to anchor back to the present moment, and hold in mind we are safe-the better not only our regulation but our relationships. Being able to come alongside and process a tough emotion as a team, rather than opponents, strengthens intimacy, trust, and most importantly safety. 

So, today I ask-is this something to call yourself on? Do you find yourself turning to battle even in the midst of safety? Are you willing to work on catching it in the moment? If so, here are some reflective prompts to guide this work. As you do, maybe I’ll annoyingly be in your head saying “Welcome to being human.”

What triggers my anxiety?

How do I respond to my loved ones when I’m anxious?

What would it be like to feel anxious with my loved ones’ support, rather than pushing them away to self-protect?

Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen. 

Dr. C

What’s on Your Playlist for Your Mental Health?

Today I want to start off with an exercise. I am going to list some basic emotions below and want you to think about what song comes to mind when you think of each one.

Scared

Happy

Heartbroken

Excited

Angry

Did certain songs come to your mind right away? Were there emotions that stumped you? When thinking about the song, did you feel the emotions in real time too? Music is amazing in that way-it can take us right back to the memories as if it’s happening for the first time.

Working in the areas of trauma, grief, and attachment-I am often supporting people through unimaginable and indescribable life experiences. Due to the nature of the experiences, the emotions attached to them are often hard to find words to describe them. Somehow though, music can fill that gap. That gap between knowing with your whole body how you feel but at the same time knowing the words available fall short to truly paint the picture.

Music not only helps us feel connected to our emotions, but it can help us to regulate them too. Research on music therapy has shown that music can help with depression, anxiety, and trauma symptoms. Music can also make us feel closer to ourselves and to others. Have you ever been in a room full of people and a song comes on and everyone knows the words? Music helps us access our emotions, regulate them, and to not feel alone in them.

That being said, I think it’s often overlooked or missed as a coping mechanism. Music interacts with our nervous system, impacting our breath pattern and even heart rate. When we listen to music mindfully, or with our full attention-these changes can be observed. Listening to music actively or mindfully (this means really really paying attention to the words, beat, instruments, and also your body’s reaction) supports regulation of the nervous system.

It’s also important to note that some music (even the music we say is our favorite) can be activating to our nervous system- perpetuating moods like anger/irritability. This is where you come in as the expert as the dj to your own playlist. The better we know our mental health and our body’s reaction to music- the better we can select which tracks we should hear depending on our emotional state.

What does today’s message mean? Music is a powerful tool to support our mental health. Music influences the nervous system in both regulating and dysregulating ways. To best use it as a coping mechanism, we benefit from knowing ourselves, our emotions, and our nervous system. And finally, taking the time to truly mindfully listen to music is different from being autopilot. The more we can attune to the music, the more we can also attune to our body and how it responds to what we listen to.

In addition to the exercise above, here are some questions to support you building the playlist for your mental health.

What emotions are tied to the music I most frequently listen to?

How do I feel after I listen to the music I most frequently listen to?

Do I tend to listen to music when in certain moods and not others? If so, what do I think contributes to me listening to music.

Where are areas of my life/routine that I could incorporate listening to music mindfully?

Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen.

Dr. C

Do You know you?

Biases are important. They absolutely influence perspective. So, let me claim mine here at the start. I am a psychologist that is heavily influenced by attachment theory, research, and clinical practice. That is-I believe relationships are critically important in any conversation about mental health. Now that that is out of the way, let’s proceed. But also- keep this whole biases thing in mind as we continue………

A big component of my approach to therapy is focusing on the relationship with the self. I’ve never quite understood how symptoms of depression, grief, anxiety, or trauma could be assessed and treated without attachment as a core component of that process. A lot of mental health treatments focus on investigating and changing thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. How can we talk about changing thought patterns, challenging beliefs, or building new habits if we don’t know the quality and history of the relationship within? Even more-so if we are totally disconnected with ourselves? Our relationships impact our reactions, perspectives, and how we regulate. How can we work on any of those things if we don’t first learn about the relationship with them?

It is not uncommon for people to struggle with answering questions about their relationship with themselves. We live in a world that offers lots of ways to distract us from spending time with ourselves. Distraction is an effective strategy (watch out-effective does not equal healthy) to avoid all of the thoughts and feelings we’ve accumulated throughout life. Although our brain and body have been present for all of our life experiences, we can live life completely severed from building a relationship with our internal self. What’s even more interesting, is the fact that we can be so unfamiliar with the internal self-while still letting that internal self run havoc on our lives. That internal self can engage in negative self-talk, create self-doubt, hate, and total disdain for ourselves; and is capable of creating entire narratives about our self or the world without a single ounce of objective data. For a part of us that is so influential on our mental health- it seems it would be a good use of time and resources to get to know us a little better, no?

As with any relationship, the relationship with ourselves needs time, prioritization, and investment. Also like any other relationship, work with the internal self requires consistency, vulnerability, and honesty (just to name a few). It can be a daunting and overwhelming task to even think about, let alone to sign up to do it repetitively.

Here is a reminder that often what we need is very different from what we want. If you are feeling overwhelmed at the idea of getting to know yourself, perhaps that is a good place to begin. I highly recommend leading with curiosity and responding to whatever comes up with grace. The cool thing is (insert nerd alert-I understand cool is a very subjective descriptor and you may be reading this thinking “Dr. C, nothing about this sounds cool.”) the more you do this work, the more magic happens. It is truly incredible how improving our relationship with ourselves can and does spill over into our lives (Remember those things above? I’m talking about those-our self-talk, our reactions, our ability to regulate-those things!). Today, I invite you to consider where in your life you can start carving out some time for you to get to know you.

Starter reflective questions:

How did I feel reading about this?

What do I feel inside when I think about my relationship with myself?

How would I describe my relationship with myself?

What comes to mind when I think about what has influenced how I talk to myself?

Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen.

Dr. Cunningham

Do you have a relationship with your mental health?

As a clinical psychologist, I can appreciate how the internet/social media has aided in increasing awareness and knowledge of mental health. With a quick search, you can learn about symptoms, diagnoses, and treatment plans for any mental health condition. While this is great, it isn’t sufficient and often gets in the way of what is most important in my opinion.

And what is my opinion exactly? That- understanding, identifying, and labeling how we feel, think, and behave is only a part of taking care of our mental health. Another part, (which I am biased to believe is the most important part); is establishing a relationship with our mental health. Pause here-have you ever asked yourself that question? “What is my relationship with my mental health?”

In the midst of information overload, I often see high levels of intellectualization of mental health content and deficits in the development of a personalized relationship. Clients, people in my personal life, as well as myself (yes, me too- spoiler-a PhD does not make your void of being a human) can fall into this trap. We can have so many facts and terms regarding mental health and still carry very high levels of avoidance and suppression with our emotions. It’s one thing to rattle off diagnoses and symptoms, it’s a whole other thing to know them for yourself intimately.

My background is rooted strongly in attachment. I fiercely believe that our mental health is a direct reflection of the relationships in our lives, including; our relationship with others and our relationship with ourself. Part of that relationship with the self-is the relationship we each have with our emotions. Our attachments from childhood often are the blueprint for this relationship. How we were responded to by our caregivers is the very data our nervous system uses to learn overtime how we respond to ourself. This is fascinating and at the same time can be overwhelming to untangle.

Back to the question at hand: “Do you have a relationship with your mental health?” Maybe, maybe not. Either way-I invite you to engage in a reflective exercise (come on, give it a try). Think about the range of emotions we can experience and pick a few (perhaps anger, sadness, fear, and embarrassment).

Spend some time with each one and reflect on these questions:

What do I feel when this emotion comes up?

How do I respond to this emotion?

Is this an emotion I suppress?

How does this emotion make me feel about myself?

Be mindful, lead with love, & don’t forget to listen.

Dr. Cunningham