Calling Ourselves Out
Today Dr. Cunningham calls out how anxiety can cause strain in our relationships. She discusses self-protection and the need to fight when anxiety is present. She asks readers to reflect on their processing of anxiety and purposes to see loving and safe relationships as support, rather than opponents.
Now, before we even get started today, talking about our own human tendencies can be tough and often triggers defensiveness. As you read today’s message, remind yourself that you are human. To my clients-I know you are rolling your eyes because I say this frequently, but it is always worth repeating. Welcome to being human.
When we experience anxiety, a common response is to further protect ourselves. Unfortunately, we often do that by yelling, rudeness, and spewing hurtful comments. Other times we can totally ice out the other persons involved, giving doses of the silent treatment. Because our own nervous system senses it’s under attack, we go to battle. This not only reinforces and strengthens are anxiety, but it’s not so great for our relationships either.
One part of being human that seems to show up for most (if not all) of us-is that we can so quickly forget our loved ones are on our side when anxiety is activated. This intensifies even more so when we’ve experienced relationships that mishandled our emotional safety. When anxiety is present, we often feel we are on our own-even if we are in currently in safe relationships.
Today’s message was titled, “Calling Ourselves Out,” and here is my pitch for accountability. Our emotion regulation and our meaningful relationships benefit immensely when we can feel tough stuff without turning against one another. I know, I know, -easier said than done Dr. C. That’s true, it isn’t easy-but it is worth it. In the midst of safe relationships-the more we can learn our triggers, challenge ourselves to anchor back to the present moment, and hold in mind we are safe-the better not only our regulation but our relationships. Being able to come alongside and process a tough emotion as a team, rather than opponents, strengthens intimacy, trust, and most importantly safety.
So, today I ask-is this something to call yourself on? Do you find yourself turning to battle even in the midst of safety? Are you willing to work on catching it in the moment? If so, here are some reflective prompts to guide this work. As you do, maybe I’ll annoyingly be in your head saying “Welcome to being human.”
What triggers my anxiety?
How do I respond to my loved ones when I’m anxious?
What would it be like to feel anxious with my loved ones’ support, rather than pushing them away to self-protect?
Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen.
Dr. C
Do You know you?
Biases are important. They absolutely influence perspective. So, let me claim mine here at the start. I am a psychologist that is heavily influenced by attachment theory, research, and clinical practice. That is-I believe relationships are critically important in any conversation about mental health. Now that that is out of the way, let’s proceed. But also- keep this whole biases thing in mind as we continue………
A big component of my approach to therapy is focusing on the relationship with the self. I’ve never quite understood how symptoms of depression, grief, anxiety, or trauma could be assessed and treated without attachment as a core component of that process. A lot of mental health treatments focus on investigating and changing thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. How can we talk about changing thought patterns, challenging beliefs, or building new habits if we don’t know the quality and history of the relationship within? Even more-so if we are totally disconnected with ourselves? Our relationships impact our reactions, perspectives, and how we regulate. How can we work on any of those things if we don’t first learn about the relationship with them?
It is not uncommon for people to struggle with answering questions about their relationship with themselves. We live in a world that offers lots of ways to distract us from spending time with ourselves. Distraction is an effective strategy (watch out-effective does not equal healthy) to avoid all of the thoughts and feelings we’ve accumulated throughout life. Although our brain and body have been present for all of our life experiences, we can live life completely severed from building a relationship with our internal self. What’s even more interesting, is the fact that we can be so unfamiliar with the internal self-while still letting that internal self run havoc on our lives. That internal self can engage in negative self-talk, create self-doubt, hate, and total disdain for ourselves; and is capable of creating entire narratives about our self or the world without a single ounce of objective data. For a part of us that is so influential on our mental health- it seems it would be a good use of time and resources to get to know us a little better, no?
As with any relationship, the relationship with ourselves needs time, prioritization, and investment. Also like any other relationship, work with the internal self requires consistency, vulnerability, and honesty (just to name a few). It can be a daunting and overwhelming task to even think about, let alone to sign up to do it repetitively.
Here is a reminder that often what we need is very different from what we want. If you are feeling overwhelmed at the idea of getting to know yourself, perhaps that is a good place to begin. I highly recommend leading with curiosity and responding to whatever comes up with grace. The cool thing is (insert nerd alert-I understand cool is a very subjective descriptor and you may be reading this thinking “Dr. C, nothing about this sounds cool.”) the more you do this work, the more magic happens. It is truly incredible how improving our relationship with ourselves can and does spill over into our lives (Remember those things above? I’m talking about those-our self-talk, our reactions, our ability to regulate-those things!). Today, I invite you to consider where in your life you can start carving out some time for you to get to know you.
Starter reflective questions:
How did I feel reading about this?
What do I feel inside when I think about my relationship with myself?
How would I describe my relationship with myself?
What comes to mind when I think about what has influenced how I talk to myself?
Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen.
Dr. Cunningham