I said leave me alone, why didn’t you stay?
We all can relate can’t we? The moment when someone asks if we are alright and with our words we say “I’m fine!” but with our behavior we show we are the opposite of fine. Guarded body language, lack of eye contact, short responses, irritable tone of voice-despite our words, our behavior often tells the true story. In the world of attachment, we refer to this as a miscue in a relationship. Rather than appropriately cuing that we are in fact not fine, we lie. If this has happened to you, well; welcome to being human.
Why do we miscue? A lot of reasons. Lack of safety, insecurity, doubt we will get our needs met, fear we will be dismissed, our own discomfort with vulnerability-just to name a few. Miscuing is a form of self-protection. A bit ironic right? In order to protect ourselves from the pain of not getting our emotional needs met, we lie about our emotional needs-which only ups the ante that they won’t get met.
I want to give a disclaimer here-this conversation is intended for the meaningful and trusted relationships in our lives. I am specifically referring to miscuing within our meaningful relationships, because there are certainly reasons to miscue in other interactions (for example an interaction at work or with a stranger). This is directed specifically at the relationships in our lives we have decided are meaningful.
The thing is-meaningful unfortunately does not always equal safe. I’m going to say (write?) that again: meaningful does not always equal safe. As mentioned above, a reason we may miscue is the lack of safety/security that our needs will get met. If we’ve decided a relationship is meaningful, and we find ourselves miscuing-what about that relationship is lacking that would make us feel more secure/safe to accurately cue our emotional needs?
This is where some good reflection and time with ourselves can be so helpful. When we miscue, are we doing so because the relationship has failed us? Do we have data that this person has continuously failed to meet our needs (I say continuously because we all do and will miss the mark in our meaningful relationships)? Are we miscuing because we fell into the human pattern of projecting past experiences of pain onto our current relationships? Have we had conversations with the people we have meaningful relationships with to teach them about what makes us feel safe? This is worth repeating as well: relationships require us to teach one another. Let’s normalize teaching the people we love what we need!
It gets even more tricky though, because before we can teach someone else what we need, we need to know what we need. Holding ourselves accountable for how previous experiences have impacted us is part of the work that safe relationships require. And let’s talk a quick minute about being on the other side here. In the meaningful relationships in our lives-do we know when our loved ones are miscuing? Have we learned what their needs are? Do we pay attention to the behaviors of our loved one as much as we do their words? As much as we want our loved ones to meet our needs-we’ve got to hold ourselves to the same standards.
Relationships are tricky and we won’t always get it right. The goal is not perfection, the goal is safety. Here are some reflections to support building safety and decreasing miscues in your meaningful relationships:
Are there relationships in your life that come to mind when you think about miscuing?
What are the reasons that contribute to you miscuing in your relationships?
Do you tend to miscue certain emotions (for example embarrassment or worry) more than others (for example happiness or excitement)?
Are there past relationship experiences that make it hard to feel safe in current relationships?
Be mindful, lead with love, and don’t forget to listen.
Dr. Cunningham